When I grow up, I want to be Cloris Leachman

"Stay close za candles....the stair case...can be trechawas." - Frou Blucher (neeeiigh)

I want to be funny when I'm old. I think that Cloris lets me know that funny carries on to old age. phew. I want to be able to make fun of myself when my health is going and have kids that know it's ok to make fun of me too :)

My friend Shawn said tonight that one of her greatest fears is getting old and wrinkly and dying. I feel quite the opposite. I mean it's not like I'm ready to be 70 right at this moment, but I'm excited to have a big family and lot's of halarious kids and grandchildren and extended family. I think it'll be awesome. I'll be the grandma that farts really loudly and wont be able to stop laughing. yup.

I mean, why are people so afraid to get old? I don't want to be in my twenties for the rest of my life! I want to get on with it and grow in my career, in my talents, in my family, etc. Frankly though, I've never been one to be able to stay in one place for a long period of time....That's probably why i'm so excited about life moving forward and becoming different and new each year, because it means I don't have to move from state to state and country to country to feel like there has been a change in my life. Thank the lord for that.

That being said, my Grandmother Culbertson's health has become increasingly worse this summer, and we just found out that she had a couple tiny strokes that caused her to lose some memory. She's a tiny lady with many artistic talents and skills. unfortunately one of them is not dealing with her emotions, and she had a gaggle of kids that do the same thing (5). Fortunately, Basically most of her kids married crazy, rambunctious people who do nothing but express emotion.....All this to say, Grandma's going to be ok, but she's moving into a different point in her life, and her kids are having a harder time than anyone dealing with it. So prayers on that.

So when I'm old, and my health is failing, I want to be able to make fun of myself, and have kids and grandkids that know it's ok to make fun of me too, or at least ask me how I am! I just want to be approachable is all.....don't worry, I'll work on that.

anyways. Life is pretty great isn't it?

n'amen.